She Lived and Loved

I want to remember everything about her. I want everyone who didn’t know her to hear about her. I miss her so much. The stories of her need to be told and read. The pain she endured to live was heartbreaking, but she smiled and loved through it all. I have to remember the smiles to know all the pain was worth it.

I am starting small. I’m trying. It’s still so weird that I can leave this house whenever I want. So fucking weird. I have been to Vegas twice, Disney World twice (two RunDisney events and lots of tears), Seattle to see Ryan, Alabama to see Hayden pitch his first game of the season and many more trips planned. Hayden and Ryan are having to deal way more with me. Sorry boys, but not sorry.

I even offered to watch 4 little humans this week. One 4 year old, 2 two year olds and one almost 3 month old baby. I was paid in good wine, little kid giggles and a tiny baby smiling at me. It was a busy, good evening.

Darren is now wondering if I need a hobby. Not yet. It’s not like I brought all 4 of them home with me.

Small start, I need to do this for me and Samantha. She was the bestest girl, I miss telling her that.

Live and love like Sam – fight for every day (with no complaining) and give the best hugs.

Nancy